The “First” Noël

    After all those years of staying far away from home every Christmas season, I finally have a chance to celebrate this holiday with my family again, the first one of this decade and last decade as well. I stayed alone for the previous years’ Christmases, mostly all of them except the weird 2019 one. It was a bizarre year for me, though. I just walked around the city in the chill wind and snow and enjoyed that winter atmosphere with decorations around the town. Nothing much more than that. I didn’t even have any trip somewhere out of town for those occasions. Thinking back, I was missing many things in my life. Still, I did have the chance to rediscover some of the great Christmas albums from other artists. As I was “enjoying” the holiday for many years without family, I somehow didn’t want to do anything on this occasion alone. This year is not as planned as there are things that suddenly happen and break my new plan.

    It’s such an impressively distinguishing holiday this year that many departures of people and things are dear to my family and me. I hope the next 2022 year will have more found than lost and bring everything back to life, as I don’t see anything bright for me this year; too dull. 

P/S: Though I was not well then, I knew something outside affected me, and it was not from me from the beginning. Sooner than 2020 or not, I didn’t know, but I’m sure it’s even further than that a couple of years. Anyway, Ciao!

                          MT = Minha Terra