My Schizophrenic Crisis Timeline

? Dec. 2020: just a week before Christmas, the auditory hallucination appeared, I talked to that ‘those voices’ constantly for a month and almost believed in everything from ‘them.’ I sang whole day, stayed in the apartment all time.

? Jan. 2021: I was still fighting with ‘them’ as nothing ‘they said were true. Must have earbuds on all the time to distract myself. I started act crazy and uncontrollable somehow as compared to my regular self.

? Feb. 2021: nothing better, I was like living in between of two different worlds, one is my regular life and the other is the life with ‘them.’ I couldn’t concentrate to study or do anything so I dropped out of my master’s degree and decided to look after myself.

? Mar. 2021: still trying to calm myself down but hard to do as ‘their’ words made me want to keep listening to. I did do nothing but lying on bed and listening to ‘those voices,’ just wondered how ‘they’ know about me and I tried to find the ‘sound source’ somewhere around my place but couldn’t find out.

? Apr. 2021: I tried to ignore and stopped believing in anything ‘they’ said. So I had ‘them’ as a spirit that like telling stories and want to haunt me all the time. Around this time, I moved to my relatives and leave my current apartment. Still heard ‘them’ all the way from San Antonio to Fort Worth, back and forth. 

? May 2021: after moving back to my relatives, I practiced my concentration. Most of the time I stayed in my room and used my laptop. I did the vocabulary quiz in foreign languages, drafting a book about learning multiple languages at the same time, learning Arabic alphabet,… 

? Jun. 2021: I still couldn’t get ‘them’ off my mind though what I tried at the moment was that how to live with it my whole life. Might be interacting with more people would help it become milder.

? Jul. 2021: the conflict with my uncle had me hospitalized this time. This time I did take the Risperidone and not flushed them down the toilet anymore. Still couldn’t see the effect and I went back to read more books to improve my concentration.

? Aug. 2021: nothing just all things above for another month

? Sep. 2021: the auditory hallucination symptom became fading away gradually. I still kept taking medication and wondered if the med work this time. It was lucky as I was about preparing flying home.

? Oct. 2021: almost no hallucination anymore though ‘they’ come back and forth sometimes but I could ignore ‘them’ easily and focused on what I want to think of. I’m home and back to normal finally.