Pre-schizophrenia Crisis

Dealing with a mental illness can be one of the toughest challenges that a person may face in their life. It can be a journey filled with uncertainty, confusion, and isolation. This was my experience as well, as I struggled with my own mental health in the beginning of 2020.

It all started with a feeling - an instinct that I just couldn't shake off. It was a sense of impending doom that weighed heavily on my mind, and it seemed to be growing stronger with each passing day. Before I knew it, I was hearing strange sounds and voices that weren't really there. I was terrified and confused, and I knew that something was very wrong.

It was at this point that I sought medical help, and I was admitted to the hospital for my auditory hallucination. I was scared, and I didn't know what to expect. The doctors and nurses were kind and understanding, and they helped me to feel safe and secure. Gradually, my mind returned to a more normal state, and I was discharged from the hospital.

However, even after I left the hospital, I was still haunted by the 'gossiping' of my neighborhood. I thought people were talking about me behind my back, but in reality, it was all in my head. This was a difficult realization for me to come to terms with, and it took some time for me to understand that it was an illusion.

Throughout all of this, I struggled with negative thoughts and feelings, which led me to make bad decisions. I felt isolated and alone, with very little support to turn to. But I knew that I needed help, and so I began to seek out resources and support to manage my mental health.

The road to recovery has been a long and challenging one, with ups and downs along the way. The symptoms of my mental illness continue to come and go, and it can be exhausting to keep fighting them. But I know that I am not alone, and that there are people and resources out there that can help me through the tough times.

If you are struggling with your mental health, know that you are not alone. There are people who care about you and want to help you. Don't be afraid to reach out for support, whether it be from friends and family, or from mental health professionals. You are stronger than you think, and with time and care, you can overcome your struggles and find peace of mind.

MT = My Trauma